GUESS WHAT DAY IT IS???????????????

HALLOWEEN

IT IS HALLOWEEN 

EVERYBODY TURN UP 

IM SO EXCITED I CANNOT DO ANYTHING

i haven't put any makeup on bc  we all know alijah and it'd be running down my face no matter what... so i'll do it during my free period before lunch :-)

so excited

xoxo

gossip girl

jk it's alijah

PS I FORGOT TO TELL U WHAT I AM

i'm a mystic from a 1920s circus

Had Ten Dollaz

YO YO YO

HALLOWEEN IS SO SOON

I CAN TASTE THE SUGAR HIGH

(speaking of sugar high... I was thinking of going as a sugar skull (because they're hella cool and I was in spanish class looking at one that was made by us during the past years and they're extremely cool and have a great story behind them, but i don't know if it would be cultural appropriation to be a calaverita for Halloween... help me on this dilemma?)

so so so excited.

xoxo

gossip girl

(jk it's alijah)

PSAT more like PSA-LAAAAAAME... Am I Right?

taken in the bathroom of a catholic school as soon as the PSAT ended 

(photo cred luz)

I've never been inside a catholic school bathroom before... It felt extremely -esque... Not sure what of though, it was like a Wes Anderson movie (so much pastel) But it also felt like a photo series by Petra Collins.  I don't remember much of the PSAT except that it was raining and I took off my shoes before the test even started. 

Also, I think this is my new staple... My go-to. Instead of cat sweaters, I've evolved into striped shirts and leggings or jeans paired with a fun sweater... Let's call this the #lazybutcomfyalijah,

#money #hardcore #newstaple

that's it

xoxo

gossip girl

(jk it's alijah)

(actually I'm super glad i got to take the psat like I'm so thankful even though i complain)

i feel weird

I love fall so much

it's one of those things man

:')

I feel good when I think about Autumn, and the fact that it's happening right now really makes me feel good but also weird because it's such a melancholy season it just kinda makes you feel lonely which isn't too fun.... but eh, you win some you lose some, right?

I just love leaves and sweaters and pumpkins and friends and ahhhhh :')

p.s. giving yourself a stick n poke while listening to teen suicide is such an experience and i can't even begin to describe it in words but here's a link to their band camp 

http://teensuicide.bandcamp.com

also salvia plath is such a funny/great name for a song i cry laughing all the time at this but it's a good song 

THIS IS SUCH GREAT MUSIC FOR ANGSTILY(not a word) LYING IN YOUR BEDROOM STARING AT THE CEILING AH MAN 

also i'm going to go see david frickin sedaris the day after tomorrow!!!! 

a huge part of me wants to wear something extremely weird so he writes something funny about me and i could put it inside my memoir "david sedaris made fun of something i wore in a really funny way when i was 16" 

xoxo

gossip girl

jk its alijah

80s ?

Y'know when you put something on and it makes you feel like you're living in a different era all of a sudden???? I put this on and it made me feel instantly 80s.

It made me feel like I belonged in a John Hughes movie (Oh wait, he doesn't cast POC in lead roles except for the foreign exchange *supporting role* in Sixteen Candles)

Yeah man.... 

so yeah!!!

racism!!!!

80s!!!!

teen culture!!!!!

john hughes

xoxo

gossip girl

jk it's alijah

Dreeeaaaaamy

I love shirts like this... with a passion.

They always without fail make me feel like I'm the male lead in an indie romantic drama-comedy.

I just really dig shirts that are a little oversized and button up and the sleeves can be folded up slightly, oh baby... oh man.

(for the reference click hereeeeeeeeeeee)

Anyways, yeah.

I've got the fuckin' PSAT tomorrow and I'm not down for it.

Like it's not too bad or anything it's just me in a room at a catholic school mocking the idea of putting a number on my intelligence, like i know i'm an idiot, you don't have to put it in numbers for me.

ALSO,

lemme tell you guys

the best thing about being an over-achieving kid is that you grow up and you realize that you're fuckin' mediocre and you'll probably end up as a next to nothing loser old person which is great!!!!!! Your entire life being told you've been told you were going to grow up to be the president or some shit and then you come to the realization that you're just another idiot?

Like damn, way to take the pressure off of me, man!!!!!

now i can truly be myself: a mediocre slack ass teenager :')

#yas #finally #swag

xoxo

gossip girl

jk it's alijah

Coppola-Esque.

"Spell the alphabet backwards"

"F-U-C-K-U"

(black jeans * cuffed; black high top converse, a white t-shirt & a thrifted vest and a blue cosby-esque sweater tied around my waist)

I'm really tired.

I'm in that weird almost-apathetic place, but it's different... Like I'm hyper aware and enthusiastic about everything but even still I'm tired and confused at the same exact time, and I hate this feeling a lot.  Maybe I need to get used to school again but I just really feel like a teenager in a Coppola movie, which sucks. (because they're generally unhappy...)  I'm just in a constant state of uncomfort right now, which isn't very fun.

~

This outfit makes me feel like I belong in a Coppola movie... slightly eccentric, darker colors, and the angst is practically seeping out of my pores, right?

  I mean we could do it checklist style?

***

If you can answer yes to over half of the following boxes, you're most likely a character in a (Gia/Sofia) Coppola movie!

1.  Are you uncomfortably melancholy most of the time?

2.  Do you find yourself in surreal situations a lot? (most of the time with/because of your friends?)

3.  Do you tend to sit and stare idly?

4.  When you try to finally understand what's going on everything looks hazy all the time?

5.  You're finding yourself in uncomfortably full parties playing never have I ever on the floor of your friend's basement with a bottle of cooking wine.

6.  Do you always contemplate the ideas of time-travel, your place in the world, and your sexuality?

7.  You sneak out of your bedroom and canoodle with boys?

8.  You write your crushes name on your underwear with a heart?

9.  You believe in making wishes on the last cigarette in the pack?

10.You've got a red hot crush for the one and only Jack Kilmer?

11. Do you have a 'thing' for bunny ears?

12. Are you in love with a person who you've only talked to twice?

13. Do you find yourself listlessly staring out of windows and/or biting your lip?

Hmmm?

xoxo

gossip girl

(jk it's alijah)

Homeshake

click this before you read

THIS WEATHER MAKES ME FEEL LIKE THIS SONG.
(Plus Peter Sagar is a super cool person/makes cool music)

Kind of like in this amazing state of mind that's not too hot and not too cold and a little foggy... it's kind of amazing. This song makes me want to walk to a park and sway with the breeze.
I think it's really important to take moments and just chill out, like I'm known for just lying down on the carpet in the student lounge with my eyes closed and having a "moment" which is great...
School's tough sometimes, it's important to take a chill pill and just decompress for a minute or two.

So yeah.
Enjoy your Saturday and get outside and sway to music :')

xoxo
gossip girl
jk it's alijah